As a person, I never really understood life and the true meaning behind it. I was always the guy that would coast through days, and weeks, never realizing that those weeks would soon turn into months & years. Everything about my way of life changed when I met my daughter Tessa for the first time. I realized, I no longer live for me, I live to provide for her. As a “starving artist” we find it hard enough, trying to take care of ourselves financially, that adding a child into the equation is quite terrifying to say the least. As long as my mind can remember, I have had the dream of making music, it’s my passion, my love, my heart & soul. Truthfully, its the only other thing in the world besides my daughter, I can say I would die for. Music, has provided my life with allot of beautiful moments, but it has also taken me to low’s I wouldn’t wish apon my worst enemies. The joy I get from performing, and watching other’s sing along to song’s my heart wrote, is an unexplainable high. I wish I had the life of many other artist I idolize, that can travel the world performing, and making a living off doing what they love to do. Unfortunately for myself, I have always seemed to be a step behind, and wasn’t able to get those door’s to open for me. I guess all these emotions about music are coming out for the fact I applied for a REAL job today, for the first time in 6 years. Applying for a real job, is even scarier for a starving artist like myself when you realize you have zero skills to fall back on besides music? No education, No job experience, You start to ask yourself, am I really going to live the rest of my life making $10 an hr? Noone ever want’s to face their dreams, when their dream’s become their worst nightmare. When you begin to feel like your dream is unreachable, it is one of the worst feelings, and pain any person could ever experience. I have battled, & fought my way in this industry for year’s, remaining positive, and believing in myself, with the strength of the loyal royal’s (my fans). The support I receive from my fan’s is the biggest motivation, and truthfully without them, I would have gave up years ago. My dream just isn’t my dream anymore, its the dream of so many that believe in me. I feel in a way, I have let so many of them down, as if my all just wasn’t enough to get me to the level they expected. It’s sad to say, but for the first time in my life, Im afraid of what the future holds. I’m at a crossroad, and I’am confused on what road to travel, I can only prey that God will guide me down the right path.

I guess only time will tell …

Thank you for your time… I love you

-Royalty

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